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Stand Up against Sexual Assault at Brown


hi, friends, please take the time to sign & share this petition. at brown, you can be expelled for cheating on an exam. you can get expelled for failing classes. but you won’t get expelled if you violently rape someone. please sign this petition to let brown know that this is unacceptable bullshit.

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Gizmo-Girls Just Want To Have Fun(Cover)

I do nottt think I’ll run into him there, or anywhere

part of what made the end a little easier was realizing how little overlap there was in our interests (though the biggest thing was recognizing that he did not treat me well or make life better), so no, I doubt I’ll stumble across him at a jazz/soul festival, even if it is in his old city. or current city. I haven’t spoken to him in so long I have no idea where he lives. 

that life of sneaking on flights to NC seems like ages ago because it was. I shake my head when I think of it now. could’ve had a V8. could’ve been in a relationship that didn’t have to be secret so often, b/c friends “wouldn’t understand” why I was back with him again…and again. could’ve been with someone I could love in confidence. 

I am hoping his black ass has moved now, maybe to Atlanta like he hoped. maybe I just don’t want to see him grown up now in a goddamn blazer or something at the Foreign Exchange show with his wife, or whoever. except, I don’t particularly care what he’s doing or who he’s with these days. I have just taken solace all these years that being a serial long-distance dater means never running into exes. let’s keep that streak going.

Artists are people driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to hide.

Donald Winnicott  (via themajorreview)

the struggle.

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Jenny Holzer

"In a dreamYou saw a way to surviveAnd you were full of joy.”


Jenny Holzer

"In a dream
You saw a way to survive
And you were full of joy.”

getting closerrr

getting closerrr

A lot of the people I follow on Twitter have been tweeting about finding ways to “walk in your purpose.” They are people who self-published or started non-profits or are otherwise creating avenues for themselves and I feel accusations in their advice. “Why don’t you have a mentor? Why aren’t you living your dream?” It pushes me toward justifications for why I am where I am instead of inspiring me to search for a mentor or find ways of doing what I care about. I’ve been having a really strong reaction to it lately, which could be fear. I don’t know what that world is about, mentors and titles and creating something substantial according to your own vision (even if that thing is just your own life).

I’ve described my life as developing like a weed and I am ashamed of tending it in such a lackadaisical way. I’ve put a lot of effort into directing and nourishing my spirit, yes, but outer life…at some point I must’ve decided that it just wasn’t something that could ever reflect what’s really meaningful to me and so I didn’t try. Pessoa advocated having a double-self and that has been the case for me, having this outer life that is passable but not impressive and an inner life that is thoughtfully seeded and culled and curated.  In life in general, I haven’t been moved to show signs of what goes on inside of me.  I share with a small network of people and that has sustained me. It has been hard to face the very real possibility that I can’t have the kind of meaningful life I really want unless I put much more effort into the outer life I’ve largely abandoned. It is not enough to have bright and fragrant life happening in the basement somewhere, it has to show even up on the surface. I thought the surface was a shallow place and certainly, it can be, but not always. It is substantive if you are. And its value isn’t dependent on what every single person on the outside perceives but there will definitely be an influential few so why not let them see something that matters to you? Something reflective of who you are? It is such a struggle for me because that is not how I have functioned in life thus far but I will have to grow beyond those things I usually do. Heaven help.

"This so-called universe appears as a juggling, a picture show. To be happy look upon it so."

got my hair cut! it’s so soft now. I’m here for it.

got my hair cut! it’s so soft now. I’m here for it.